Old school

Oh God You hear me, oh God You know me, and Oh God You see me. Oh God why do You love me? You see more than what I show the world. You see more than the church knows. You see more than anyone else does. You know my works and my thoughts. You know my malice, You know my hate You know my lust, but You also know my fate.
I heard your call, though because of fear I chose to withdrawal. I feel like I am alone and deep down I know why. The voice of many waters is hard to hear if you choose to close your ear. I have tried to hide my life from you, but still you knew everything I would do.
Even though my heart thirsts for your voice sadly I keep making the wrong choice. My evil deeds keep piling up yet Lord you still offer to fill my cup? How is Your love still there? I keep turning my back to You, and I look back and I see your hand still reaching for me. I throw dirt in your eyes and spit in your face, yet Lord you still offer me Your grace?
I look into my heart Lord You are there, I look out on Your people You are there Lord, I look out on Your Earth You are there Lord, and I look out on Your universe You are there Lord. You are all around me and even reside in the deepest depths of my heart, yet I chose to depart?
On my knees sackcloth on my back and ashes on my head I cry out to God with all the passion and all the strength left in me hoping You will once again draw near to me. I fear my cries will be unheard because I continually chose to ignore Your Word. But You whisper in my ear “son no need to scream I was always near”. No deed is greater than grace; no darkness can hide Your face, never again will I let my love for You leave this place. In the shadow of your wing all there is left to sing is all the glory and honor to Christ my king.